Twins 10 Years Apart Sarah

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Welcome to the pursuit of happiness podcast. I'm your host Marta. And this week we talk to my twin 10 years apart, aka my sister Sarah, where we discuss things like going to sickcare on Thanksgiving morning, and also having no green flags. And just so everyone knows, we recorded this on one microphone, so it might sound a little wonky or unusual. But it's a really great episode. I think so stay tuned. Sarah, don't fill me you sending that film? Sir. Have you ever been sent a dick pic? Yes. Is our icebreaker. Yes. I was someone I knew. I think I can't I feel like it was either MySpace or Facebook when I first became a thing. I think it was Facebook. I think we just had gotten Facebook where like, no one's on Facebook. Everyone's on MySpace. But we got it. For you. It would have been 2006 How old would I be? Six. Still was frightening. Because like, No, I didn't send like picture texts back then. It was like a message like someone was taking it with one of those digital cameras uploaded it to me, but it looks so much effort. And like I was sitting there and I remember Josh was like, like I have Josh. My friend Josh in college. We were in our architecture building. So it's like everyone's on desks. And I was like, Oh, look, there's a message that he was like, Oh, my God. You're addicted. And then everyone was like, crowding around and like messaging this person. I don't remember what they wrote. But I was just like, terrified. Like, oh, wait, can you message people? You can message people and they're not your friends. So it was just a random man who? So maybe it was my space? Well, I don't remember. I don't either. I don't think they had as messaging. Did they on MySpace? Dude, I don't remember. It was either MySpace or Facebook. So Facebook, I think 2000s And it wasn't not someone that I was friends with. Like Facebook was probably so different back then. Yeah. And we were just like, there were multiple pigs. It wasn't just one. Well, yeah, it was you're gonna you're gonna take Yeah, but I was just like, terrified. And everyone. I don't remember what they wrote. And they were like messaging this person for me. And I was just like, but only one you've ever received. No, but that guy did masturbate at my car window. I mean, yes, that was the only one that's very different than a dick pic. I'm pretty frayed. haven't received any others. Okay, that's good. Yeah, yeah. Yeah. Okay. So now I have to ask you some personal questions to tell our audience about you. So what's your favorite movie? I actually don't know the answer to this. Free Willy. Oh, yeah. Why Free Willy Sara? I just love that. Well, Keiko. Sure you have a he got to have free for a while. I truly think that's my favorite movie. I guess I got a free Willie three. Skip number two. Legit sucks. No makes sense. I guess I would have maybe guest for you well because my deaths along remember workouts the end of Free Will you absolutely play when I die? Yep, that's our agree. But, um, so yeah, that makes sense. I forget. Or like if I be really sick with something about it. I play that so I think you might be on death's edge yet play it or have it ready like thinking right now and I just love it. But if I play it, you're gonna have like a breakdown. No, you could probably even play it when I'm really stressed out. I feel like it just calms me. Yeah. Okay, I know the answer to this but obviously people other people doubt is your favorite musician. Brandy Carlisle Oh, yeah. That's all I'm saying about that. We had a band break up. They didn't break up. We broke up with them. Yep. Okay, what's the other thing that I asked? Oh, what do you do for your job? Don't say where you work though. We don't want me Yes, doctors, although I guess they could probably put two and two together. I do window displays for lots of places. That's true. I am. But don't you say professional artists? Yeah, I'm gonna say it's not just like, you don't set up clothes. And like, if not all, not all things are windows. So art installations or in the lation. Builder? Art and stuff. If you don't just Yeah. You're an artiste? Yes. Okay. Lastly, what's the matter with you? Oh, because I'm single. No, it doesn't have to be. Oh, just generally will have answered it. Like in regards to being single because that's kind of what this podcast is about. But you can answer it however you want. I mean, I feel like getting into what's wrong with me is like a therapy conversation. It is. So it's like not entertaining. So choose, most entertaining thing that's wrong with you. You are sitting laying on me like I am your therapist. Yeah. I don't even lay down when I go to therapy. Yeah. I used to be really afraid of driving cars. Oh, I'm always afraid I'm dying of something. Or people around me are dying of something. Yeah. Yeah. So you're a hypochondriac. Yeah. Why don't you talk about the third time that showed up the worst? For Thanksgiving. I don't know if that's even the worst was just a good story. Well, what do you think is the worst? I'm sure there's been way worse times that you went to the doctor on a home note. That's embarrassing, but I don't think it's embarrassing. I think it's funny. I was looking at my fingernails the night before Thanksgiving and I saw a line going or no vertical anchor. And I looked I Googled what it was. It's like that could be melanoma like a mole under your fingernail. I have major panic attacks. I couldn't sleep all night. I was just Googled how to get a smartphone into a Google I must have had some kind of smartphone. Yeah, I'm here was 200 West felt like we had smartphones. We did we did? Yeah. I feel like if he was a baby, yeah, we would have had smartphones to focus in my room from my memory. Yeah. I just like doable and stuff. regels seven, eight freaks myself out. I drove too insecure for the moment it opened on Thanksgiving. I was waiting sitting on the stairs for them to open it. And I went in and the doctor was just like, you probably just hate your finger. Like fuck, and I know it was a it was I see so emphatically typed in there like this girl series girls sat outside. Yesterday. I told my friend Chris about it like a week later. And he goes oh, yeah, what are you here for like kidney was on something and I was like, oh I wish I knew that back on the evil things like I want so you have this weird mark on my butt that didn't even mole and I had such or people losing my mind and scared and I feel like they were just like your skin. You kept on trying to get me laugh at that. But it was like insane to me that I would get that worked up about it. But those were for smartphones. It wasn't before googling but Google was only a huge thing. Once you Googled what could be wrong with you. I don't think I did that. I think I just was like can I don't even think I Googled anything I just saw something weird because when I have a memory of it now it just like seemed like discolored skin like it wasn't even a mole. Like it's nothing that's even there anymore. It's probably like a zit they're like oh, this is not skiing like they have a logs of every Well now they like put it on the internet like the notes from your thing that I can go back or they may like maybe trend prescribing her anxiety medication but they didn't remember with all those notes. I went to the doctor no and propose that I needed anxiety medication and they probably had all these no but I'm there and they give you something when you for your finger. Did they give me I swear they gave you to like Prozac or some no I don't think they did. I think I was so tired because I seed up that whole night and I fell asleep on the ground under a chair and I don't think they did something else do the Hemi Ambien Ambien anyway? Yeah, that's a pretty big people's are gonna be like this so sad and hard. And live now I just laugh of myself. Or else. You seem so crazy to me now. And baby. That's the anxiety medication. Fix my brain. Yeah. That seems crazy. Yeah. Okay, perfect. Okay. We'll be fine. Find my notes. I can't listen to this because I keep my voice on things. Well, you don't have to. Okay. Oh, so now we're going on to our next segment called overgeneralize questions for women and I have looked these up. So they're weird. Men. The questions men have for women are just stupid. Like, I don't know. Okay. Let me find my other notes. Wait, so you just looked him up? Yeah. Because first of all, most of my followers are women. Okay. Okay. Okay. And I don't have questions about myself. Okay. Oh, this is a good for you. Great. Why do we remove all the crutches so all humans I mean, I do. I, according to the Mac as thieves make me angry. And obviously I need to talk about grudges in therapy. Yeah, but why do you think you hold on to? So it's part of my personality. Okay, but why do you think women? Do women do more than men? Sarah, this is just a question of men or women. I don't know how to answer it. You're answering it as if you're answering for every woman on the planet. Men are stupid. That's why they hold grudges. Yeah, because you get so pissed at all the men in your life. Yeah, but you they hold grudges against women too. Oh, no. You said where? I suppose the answer it like, Yeah, but you're confusing. How was that confusing? Because I was answering it like saying, Don't men hold grudges damning me. And then you're like, turning it back on me. And I'm not like that. I do think that men hold grudges. The specific question is why do women hold grudges? The men that are not violent. There. So you think if we were violent, we would just beat each other up and go to war? Yep. Gotcha is are way better than a war. I agree. Could just be petty. Yeah, it could just be like, in your mind be like pay debts. You could just be like, Russia, and I hate you. Or you'd be like, petty things that wouldn't like affects the entire world. Like just did you see that outfit? Yeah. Putin in that outfit, like people probably do to me daily. Work crocs work the other day of extra bit. Anyways, keep going. Okay, so question number two. Why do girls go to the bathroom together? because they want it because they want to Sarah sometimes you'll just be like, I gotta go to the bathroom and it reminds someone else they also need to go to the bathroom. Okay? It's because women are more organized. I think it also probably has to do with the fact that being a woman and going anywhere by yourself in public can be true knowing or scary. A pack of women go into the bathroom together. A guy's not going well. I've definitely gone to the bathroom by myself. Well, yeah. But also you can tell secrets in there. You can talk shit on the boys that you're with. Yeah. Like they the men who asked this question are just huge idiots because like, obviously that's why we're doing Yeah. Okay. My breathing loud. No. Using me like so why do girls say they hate girls? Because boys make them think they do. I don't know. I think it's I think I love it when girls hate each other. Yeah, I think it's because the girls who didn't say that or pick me girls. They have a they need to get over that. They do. But they hadn't. They haven't at that point. Yeah, they haven't realized how stupid guys are. Yeah. Okay, these are going by real quick. It's supposed to be longer. Discussion. Sorry, sometimes I'm just precise. Okay, let's see. I'm gonna fight. Okay, sir. What does it period feel? Like? Literally, like her guts. There's a little troll in there ripping your uterus. I don't know if I would say a troll. Sophia like tiny nails. It's just like, grabbing and twisting. Oh. How would you describe describe it like it's like, I get worse cream. Something if I'm not on birth control. Like, I've literally thought I was gonna die before. I'd been like moaning like I've heard it before. But I would consider it like, like, there's hot love. Ed. coating your internal organs. And it's slowly sloughing off. I don't know. Yes, someone is purely a troll. Okay. The troll could be in there. But the trolls not me. It's like a trolls in there but stomping around the angry dog cheering. I don't know. It doesn't feel like it feels terrible. It does feel I read this thing that said a period is as painful as having a heart attack and kill a barrel. Is that true? Or is that just a game? I think maybe Latin America never hair emerging. But obviously wouldn't feel similar because having a period doesn't feel like anything with your heart. It just feels like you're nuts. There's a there's a viral Tiktok of this guy who said I just found out that periods are as painful as a heart attack and he's like faking like his hands are shaking and he feels bad for them he's called a pygmy boy I'm learning lots of things but it was a pickmeapp boy to pick me boys he basically takes things that women experience and be like puts it on tick tock and it's like oh I'm a good guy because I feel bad that your period I mean I wouldn't want a guy to feel bad for me but he's genuine when it's like a hot guy with a neck tattoo. Like trying to be hot. Be like and you know that what you don't want to go out and drink tonight so he's really like yeah, when you're like suffering from your period, that bad with that can do it? to it? By get less embarrassed if I'm mopping video Don't record it. Yeah, well, good. Notes borrow. It can be embarrassing my horse laugh. Yeah, here, it's not very hard to explain. Maybe it's like genomics. 96 loves like the owner podcasts. Yeah. I felt like maybe it's like electricity stabbing your insides, maybe because that they do that electricity thing to men too. And also, just like, slowly, it hurts so badly. I have this one memory in high school, having my period. I just like kept leaving, like been saying I had to go. I was like in art, and I had to like, walk up and I would just like, stay in the bathroom for so long. Like, literally that I was gonna vomit. And I didn't know what to do like, because like, you like, take ibuprofen. I did that I used to like, unknowingly, probably almost overdosed myself on ibuprofen. And then finally, I was like, to my boyfriend, and ice was like, bribe me and I wouldn't go when I felt an ankle, but I didn't have a car. Okay, I think that's enough. overgeneralize. Since for, like, how I answered no, you just we don't do that we do three usually needed for you just answer him really fast. So I can't go through all of them. Okay, so you don't have a dating app? I have, but I don't. When's the last time you use? Before 2015? Okay, why is that such a specific because they know it was before Jama was more because I didn't have my current position. Work. Okay. So maybe 2014 ish. Okay. And so that was a long time ago. You remember anything about it? I remember going on hoard dates. So we'll talk about the hoard dates. What was can you remember anything that anyone said to you? That was the worst? Like, a specific person? No, but there were lots of people that said things they just don't remember. So I remember immediately being like, no, almost to every person. Yeah. Okay. Well, I mean, like, I just remember guys would like try to talk to you would just like say one word thing. And like girls would have so many matches. It's like, you can't just say hi, I'm not going to answer back. Yeah, there's a very, you have to be pretty impressive. And I have to say, there's some very very impressive there's not very many of them present people and like also men just don't message you. Always message me. Well, maybe back in the day, that was more of a thing. Yeah. Because that's how they started and like so many people like you'd match and then immediately after would be like, Hi, I guess maybe this is just like they have because there's so many different dating apps now they like the too many options. They not that they have too many options. They just like because I do feel like Tinder was the only real app because we did those other ones but those were like website. Oh, yeah, we can talk about stock calm. You did plenty of fish and people would always message me and my email be like this person messaged you. And I was like, I don't run this account. I remember. There was a guy on your plenty of fish. Yeah, cuz we were like messaging back. Yeah. wanting nothing to do with it. So you were like, I'm gonna admit something. I when I was a young teenager. I love to cat fish. Oh, why did you how did you so right after a crash would you could get in chat rooms. And we would say my name was hot ass. And we would like try to piss people off. I think everyone did that. Yeah, I feel like Cuba. I made a whole like MSN persona. Lunch. And i It's because I was really good at it because I had practice so I think it's like the rider Braden me because like, I just need some story. Okay, so, um, I said, I found a picture of Rupert grid from Harry Potter, Ron Weasley, and it was like, blurry, and I was like, perfect. So it was fixed. My picture was of him. And then I like would find just random people from my school to message. And I was like, yeah, 12 Simple, like a ball cap. People tell me I look like Ron Weasley all the time. And like, I remember there was just this one specific girl who like, would always talk to me and I was like, Oh, it's getting a little bit weird. Like so even as a young adult you like to catfish? Adult I was 13 No, but in when we lived on 200 West, you can't fish these. You're like, I'm gonna make the DVD. out when people. Okay, so at that point of my career, I liked to just be as weird as possible. Like, I thought it was funny. Like when I was 13 I felt like I had a weird power. Yeah, everyone's gonna love this. And then I'll like secretly tell them to think that I'm cool. I think I maybe told them that he was my cousin. Or something weird. I don't know. It was remembered. We told our cousins my boyfriend was NIC card. Yeah, like we really live. Like healthier boyfriend, Nick. I'm a good he's good. Like for years, they feel like they believe with us rude but also funny. Yeah. Yeah. So basically, we would I made Sarah answer the question. Like, when you do match.com back in like 2012 or 11. You had to like answer survey questions. So I was putting in Sara's actual feelings. And obviously she was like, I hate everyone. That has the disadvantage. And it was like there's no for you. It was like thinking for forever, like, make a match. And then it's like, We're sorry. We can't find any matches for you. Really, they just want a big How big you want to date girl? Yeah. You want you want shelling my destiny. They're like, this is not a good idea for you. What's the last date you went on? Tinder? Remember? I literally have no idea. I think it was a Tinder date. It could have been this guy but like told me that he couldn't hold in his farts. Yeah. Yeah, that's really weird. I'm not 100% Sure, though, but I think or was it the Dungeons and Dragons and so on. But you went on a date with that guy? Yeah, he like we met at a bar and he just talked about how he painted Dungeons and Dragons figures and stuff like that Dungeons and Dragons. You made up that people. But he like ordered figurines and would like paint them. I don't know if it was really Dungeons and Dragons was like, me, it was like, every Wednesday I have I never miss it. I go to the game thing. And I run these games. And I was just like, You know what? I'm sure he's found hopefully a lady who's into that. Yeah, but for me at that time, I was just like, Well, yeah, that's a commitment. Like, at first I was like, I mean, that's kind of cool that he painful. Yeah. Oh, yeah. As soon as I like talk to him. I knew that it would be. Yeah. Okay, so why don't you tell us about a bad date story? That wasn't that one a different one. Their worst date? I don't know if you think of a bad day, but it wasn't from a nap. That's okay. Oh, no. Oh my gosh. I got How's she Jr. Bro? Okay, by this person, I literally I've never said anything to ya. He thought he told people that he thought that I would fake sleep and class and stare at him. No, I literally was sleeping. I'm always been a tired girl. So he asked me and like back then you like, which is I feel like so wrong now. I hope this doesn't happen now. You like felt like you had to say yes. Yeah. And so he said yes. Wait, did you do Did he ask you like in the Utah very intense, tricky way but I don't remember how and I didn't put it in my scrapbook. about it. So I don't Don't remember how I blocked it. I blocked that. You don't remember how you answered him back? Okay, so you don't like this guy. He made up lies. Yeah. I've literally never talked to him. But so the year before I had said no to someone and everyone was like, You're never supposed to say no. And so that I was like, God, I guess I have to say yes. The only good thing that came out, okay, there were two things that came out the day one we ate at this weird covered wagon restaurant. Oh, oh, that made me have a great idea to figure out what it was. And take live off there for a birthday. And it's fucking weird. What's it called the Prairie Schooner. But the best part is, is it was so fucking far away. That it took up so much time. So by the time we got there, we barely danced and then left. But when I had to get my picture taken, I could not make myself smile. I could not I wish we could put a picture with this because I probably have on we can on her like Instagram, love to like dig it out. And I could not make myself like I tried so hard. Even in the group picture like I Faisal just like, so awkward. Like, you know, anyone in your group? No. And I was already a very shy person. And he'd never talked to this person. Terrible. One time. I think I sit down faked and said, No. Because I've never had a curve. Yeah, I like me dancing. Yeah, you had a girl. You're really good. Like, oh, and I started crying before he picked me up. It was terrible. Don't ever make girls go to dances with people they don't want to go with I remember, I went to a dance. It was actually I don't remember who I actually took. But I was like part of Morgan's group. But it was all these people that like I didn't hang out with it was because Morgan liked this girl. And we were like part of her group. Yeah, it was for a Christmas dance. And like the group, like, literally, we got in a fight about the song Christmas Shoes. It was like that is the worst song I've ever heard in my life. That is the best fight. I'm glad you stood up for that. Because it is the worst. I was. I think it was no cuz I would have. Okay. Long back memory. Yeah. So I think I went with the guy who ditched me on prom and that one and I was part of Morgan's group for some reason. Oh, because he didn't like go with you know, I'm saying for that dance. He asked me and we went to a dance. Oh, it was graduated. It was the Christmas dance. So we were part of Morgan's group because he didn't. Yeah, and yeah. And then Morgan. Like no. Yeah, it was very awkward. And I was like dressed in a Christmas outfit with our like Christmas tree skirt. Like and fancy dresses. But that was the year after me. Morgan went to the Christmas dances elves. So it was our my senior year. Yeah, I remember still the tree thing. Yeah. But I also got ditched on prom. So both of us had very, not great dance experiences. Yeah, I had fun when I want my friends. I think that was the first NCAA one to two. Oh, no. Maybe it was with PJ. I don't remember. That was awkward to I don't even want to think about dating when I was that young because I felt like I didn't really want to date. But he felt the pressure that I had to answer was just remember how my teacher was married to? Oh, he's stepbrother. He did me. Never Dean. I was an I tried to tell my teacher that she like no they did. I was like, oh, no, we literally never did. I remember I thought that teacher had the worst makeup. She like this isn't style now but it wasn't in style. She always would wear really thick white Island Islander style. Under her eyes, that's all I know. And that black eyeliner on top of her eyes, but it wasn't like cool and stylish because she wouldn't like have a cat. I was just like, hard, harsh lines. That she'd crunchy hair. Anyways, I was like, Oh God, my son. assert and actually like never know that's that's to be just like make up for the date and people just create their own realities man Okay um let's do crap I don't know have my would you rather with me? I'm just think of some would you rather God this is some someone asked me this one because he had good would you rather nobody else asked me? Would you rather have a cat butthole for nose or cat for those half of a cat coming off of your face? A cat? Good, thank you. What if it was like Liz wears her face ugly? No, but she's mean. But you could invite you if it was just her face. Say it was her face. It's a half her body. We don't get can you? Like don't understand, as I mentioned a cat ad going on from where my nose. It's like she's cut in half and half of her front part of her bio. So she'd have claws still do that. Because like you'd be smelling pool the driver flows and bow. Yeah, but would there be poo coming out into your butthole? This year when you were at or actually is it it's a different guy was on the podcasts? Like to do a dating. I know. They're just random. Okay, okay, let me think of another one that I have asked you to do? Somebody. I don't think you know who either of actors are. Say it. Would you rather have Danny DeVito or another one? That is no but the other one. Danny Trejo. So we know what they're in. I don't look him up. Would you rather have Danny DeVito or Danny Trejo and play you in a movie? He already can tell they want it to be DeVito He's so weird. is weird. But is it? Trejo? T ar e. J? Oh, okay. Yeah. Divya. Yeah, why, though? So weird. I think you do a good job. Sure. Please. I felt like I'm grumpy like can be grumpy. Since like maybe is I don't know. You seem like a joyful man to me. Well, I'm joyful sometimes. Yeah. Okay, would you rather have an extremely sticky face or extremely magnetic genitalia? sticky face? Think of how annoying that would be. Like everything. How annoying. What do we do magnets just stick out here. Yeah, are you walking by lots of little Can you like somehow neutralizing was close? Maybe I wouldn't use that. I don't know if the laws of these things. I take things seriously. Like I have to know the details. I think that normal clothes would not protect you. You'd have to have like some sort of, like contraption worn over your vagina. Do that. Even if it was really bulky. Yeah, I like loose fitting clothes. Perfect. Okay, um, we're gonna go into red flags and green flags. But this is hard because you don't have a dating. Profile. Okay, so say you were on a dating profile. What would be some red flags if you saw them? You're like immediately No. Fishing Do you Yeah, guns. Yeah. Camo. Fox the brand. So yep. I know there's more than this. Like just I know there's more. Here. Let's pull up like a gym rat. Yeah. Okay. Spike tear. Okay. fake tan tanning bed, Tim. Yeah. Thumbs up So like life theater, just like wearing it as an out like it when dudes were chains. Yeah. If they were wearing like a girly chain, like a girl necklace, I'd be way more into that. About a lot isn't it? Yeah. Anything about this person now? By cars, and also what's around his neck? I don't know. Oh, Cabo. You know, Okay, what about this person? Um, the thing is normally I would be like, yeah, because I feel like I'm drawn to that kind of guy but I need to stay away from that. Because it has not worked out for me. Is he good? Fight Like cat. Oh, you back day but maybe it was like he did it once. Let's read. Motorbikes old truck, Sarah. But he reads books. Let me see the rest of it. Love that. Space is morphing into a weird key next, stand in my lake. So there's nothing like two red flags about this. But I just don't know. Like, I don't want to date so much that I would definitely say no. Well, yeah, but like, for me to go on a date, who'd have to be like, Okay, let's talk about green flags. What would it take to get you to go on a date? I didn't even know like gives me $10,000? Is the answer that's an honest answer. They bought me a house. Okay, well, let's say that it's a bit tameable grieving man could do nothing except give you money. Can you help me think of something? Um, what about wearing lots of necklaces, but cool necklaces? I mean, that doesn't mean I go on a date with them. But like, maybe I'd be like, consider, like, not even consider but not immediately hard. No. Yeah. What is He? Is this show that I'm a sad person? Because I've literally so like, if you're gonna be like, tell me about your perfect dude. I'd be like rich Taylor. even know if he would be a perfect dude. You're saying if there existed a man, that was a copy of Taylor Hanson that wasn't married and had good political views. We knew love. Yeah. Yeah. So it's him except in a different reality. Yeah. Okay. So basically green flag is detailer. Reality. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. Good to know. Like, I think artists are cool. Lots of dudes that are artists, I would really think are artists. Okay, not all because like obviously, I know people that I work with that are real artists. Yeah. Just some people. Like, I'm not talking about people that just know I like no some in my head. Yeah. Yeah. Okay, so some artists if they're really artists, yeah. Maybe a day Eat someone who did hair. So they do my hair for me, sir. It's not like I'm just at the age in my life, or it's like, what am I going to get out of this? Yeah, and maybe that's rude. Not happiness. Gotta be quantifiable. I mean, the thing is like, I mean, I'm obviously not like super happy with my life that could definitely improve it right now. Yeah, but I don't see a man specifically fixing those things. Unless they were like, loaded and took me and my family members that I wanted to go. Yeah. And maybe that means I'm a bitch. And people are gonna hate me. No, because it's not like not dating. Someone is doing anything to anyone. Yeah. I just don't see it as a win situation. Yeah, I mostly feel like it's wasting my time that I would much rather I work so much that I would much rather be sleeping. TV with people I like, literally doing the bare minimum. Like I would rather sleep set go on a date. Yeah. Yeah, so yeah, I get that. I'm definitely a spinster. Because Does that mean you're a spinster? I don't know. I own it admission of a spinster. But yeah, I'm rarely excited for a date. Like, the only times I've been excited for a date is like, when it's not really a day. It's just somebody I like, and I'm hanging out with them. Yeah. And guess what? That hasn't happened for so long with me. Yeah. And the people that it has that I liked has turned out so terrible. And I'm like, Why did I even like the that was really dumb. What is wrong with me that it makes me be like, Okay, I have to ask you a question about specific that I was with you. First of all, I was the one that created this problem, because you know who I'm talking about? Me? Yes, we were at a play. Yeah. And you gave my number he was singing and so I gave him but like, that's almost literally every person that I dated is I break, you know, is a terrible decision. And after I'm like, Why did I like that person? Let me ask you this. Okay. So we were at a karaoke bar, which I felt like was his idea. Yeah. And he would go up and sing the songs that he thinks like he does good at what he said. He sounded good. Yeah. Singing. Are you like when you saw that? Were like, this is so hot. I was thought that he was like practicing. I mean, this is to me, I was such a weird situation. Like, I felt like I was such a removed person. Like when I think about that. Yeah, I was like, This guy is trying to impress my sister. By coming. And having grown up and be like, yeah, so good. Yeah. Girls come up to Oh, yes, they did. I probably didn't even notice because they do not the kind of person notices that so that's funny. I once went on this Tinder date with these people were like, the person's friends were like talking about how Ricky was, and I swear words like get me to like it. Yeah, yeah. But I kept talking to you like, oh, no, because it was my fault. I gave him your number. And then I was like, How does she like smoked a ton? He couldn't drive. He didn't have a real job. He only ate like hot pockets. up having beard a call. Hey, always, like perfectly curled under? Yeah, like, do his dude. I feel like how ugly is tattoos I've ever Yeah, I agree. And I swear to God, it's because that was the height of my anxiety in my life. Like I had those spots removed on my back. I feel like it was like this out of body experience. You were so you were dissociated because it even seems more fake. Than like yeah, you have to be real. If I am dated, if I dated the men that you Yeah, I would be like and then I would be a bitch you because I would be like I'm not hanging out with you, if you're hanging out with them, I would be like, that's basically what I said to you about. And you were like, he's nice to be and we're like, he was nice to me for like, a few weeks. So then I was like, fuck, girl, I'm telling you, I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't get it. I don't know. And that if people only understood the kind of people I choose to date, they would be like, Yeah, girl, you to date, take a break for the rest of your data anymore. And it's like, fun. I think those situations I can't even handle. But there were times when I wanted to break up with people for so many months. Like, couldn't do it. I have to say, though, that we're dissing you between those relationships made me much better people. Because the two people that I consider my boyfriend were better were really weren't really best, but like, they are genuine, like genuinely nice, normal people. Yeah, dude. And I will say that I think the Lord that like I never somehow married These people seem to like paying the Lord. Like I see some other situations now. And I'm like, Oh, my God. Yeah. I'm glad I'm not their ex wife. Okay, well, let's finish with our last question, which I already know the answer to. Because you and mom and Rebecca thought about it. Okay. You think if Oh, yeah, yeah. Okay. Now, if you think do you think I forget Harry Styles. Fall in love with me if I met him in real life? I say no, because I'm the realist of the family. So just really don't love celebrities like that famous that was celebrity only date celebrities. Yeah. That's not like a Hanson. Hanson. Like before they were married. Like, do you? I'd be like, yeah, they would. What if I give famous, Sarah? Well, then you would have a chance. Okay. But it's lucky. Because people don't just D average people. You think that you think yourself is like that? h&m. Let's go on a date. Excuse me? Where h&m Big ever? I don't think I own one at all. I wasn't even talking about you. It's funny, just about a girl. Yeah, I mean, I agree. I almost want to buy stuff there sometimes. And then I feel it and I'm like, the same shitty, and then I don't. Okay, that's a great place to buy by. What you just heard is the beginnings of the future Grey Gardens. I'm little Ed. Sarah is obviously old mama. Yeah, that's our future we're gonna be live in a poor house to them and just be in total weirdos. And everyone's gonna be like, Oh, look at these wacky girls. Anyway. Thank you for listening. You can follow us on our social medias. And it's, you know, it's, it's listed in the description, but I'll say it here for you because I'm so nice and gorgeous. 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